Sunday, May 29, 2016

To the Tree and Back

To the tree. That was as far as dad, the frequently over-protective insurance executive, allowed my siblings and I to ride. No less, only on the sidewalk. A fine scenario for Big Wheels and traditional tricycles, but once graduating to two-wheeled bicycles, with multiple gears, it became ridiculous. Despite a decent sized sidewalk and front yard, a few strides and we were at our destination; then, we had to stop, turn around at the tree and head back toward the driveway leading to the backyard. All on the sidewalk, and, upon occasion, to the mockery of other neighborhood kids. Any deviation from the path, like, perhaps, in the street, would be met with a grave warning - which I experienced more than once transgressing the rule whenever possible. It was not that he thought we could not recognize an oncoming car in order to avoid it. In his professional capacity, he just had seen too many kids who had not - and, even more, drivers not paying attention. This simply carried over to his duty as a dad.
  Decidedly, this ludicrous restriction would be eased and eventually abandoned as gradual disregard triumphantly won out in the battle of wills.
  When my 16th birthday approached, my buddy Kevin and I finally were able to take my birthday present - my 1970 Mustang convertible, powered by a modified Boss 351 Cleveland engine - out for a short spin. An extended short one. Not too extended, but still more than around the neighborhood. I only had my learner’s permit at the time, but Kevin, a few months older than me, already was licensed. Thus, I could drive with him in the car. Besides, we were just driving to the grocery store...and to the popular strip mall across town for a lap around it. There was a grocery store adjacent to it as well, but that wasn’t the one to which we were headed.
  Semantics.
  After visiting the grocery store, we backtracked in the opposite direction. A movie theater anchored the strip mall, with a few fast food joints and a gas station. Many high school students hung out there on weekends, just cruising and loitering. The latter, of course, according to the police. As we reached midpoint into our cruise around the main strip, Kevin noted a car beelining toward us as it crossed the large parking lot.
  “Hey, that car looks like your older sister’s Firebird,” he casually stated.
  Turning to my left to look, I noticed the license plate. Exasperated, I shook my head.
  “That’s because it is my sister’s Firebird. And we’re in trouble.”
  She wasn’t the one driving though.
  He pulled behind us, honking and flashing the headlights. I immediately pulled into the movie theater’s parking lot, which was surprisingly empty. Kevin and I sat still, as my dad leapt from the car and slammed the door behind him. He was more frustrated than angry, but it seethed. At least he had taken the time to tuck his red nightshirt - yes, dear reader, a nightshirt! - into his pair of fading jeans, along with throwing on his low-cut blue Converse sneakers. His graying brown wavy hair, however, was disheveled – probably further turning gray as he approached. Thankfully, there was no one around, i.e. high school girls, to see this epic display of fashion.
  “What the hell are you two doing?” he questioned, leaning into my open driver-side window.
  Incredulously looking up at him, I held my nervous laughter. “W-We went to the store, like I said we were, and now we’re heading back home. Did you follow us, dad?” I tersely asked.
  “Funny, it looks to me like you’re cruising around,” he retorted, wagging a stern finger at us. “And, yes I did. Now, get your butts home immediately.”
  He stormed back to the Firebird.
  I calmly drove away without protest and out of the parking lot onto the road toward the waiting intersection. Kevin and I stared ahead in silence as we waited for the red light to change, the music emanating from the vintage radio barely audible over the grumbling engine. Dad was directly behind us.
  Kevin broke the veiled sullenness. “Was he wearing a stocking cap?”
  I laughed, breaking my frustrated glare. “No, that was his hair sticking up. Apparently, he just got out of bed to come look for us.”
  Kevin nodded his head, laughing as well. “Looked like a stocking cap.”
  That blithe peculiarity amused both of us. When the light turned green, we proceeded on without further comment. Privately, as we traversed the road back home, I pondered the events. I had tested the boundaries of my understandably cautious, albeit seemingly inane, subjection, yet again breaching the imposed barrier of the watchman tree. Surreptitiously, I brashly grinned at the thought...also remembering that he was just adhering to his duty as a dad, looking out for his many sons - blood-related or not.
  Today, he would have turned 77 years old.
  See ya at the tree, dad! Wear your stocking cap!

  
[Read similar stories and much more in my personal narrative, Echoes From An Unexamined Life - www.amazon.com/Echoes-Unexamined-Life-Steve-Sagarra/dp/1500577618]

©2016 Steve Sagarra

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Sometimes A Great Notion of My So-Called Life

Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster,
and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.”
-Friedrich Nietzsche

Abyss: Who are you?
Voice: An idea evolving, re-invented, numerous times.
Abyss: When were you born?
Voice: Yesterday, maybe tomorrow, it eludes me.
Abyss: Who do you want to be?
Voice: Not this, or that, or anything else.
Abyss: Where do you want to be?
Voice: Not here, or there, or anywhere else.
Abyss: Are you who or where you want to be?
Voice: I am, and I am not.
Abyss: How would you describe this duality?
Voice: Like a penitent hermit, living in vagabond exile.
Abyss: From what are you hiding?
Voice: An imperceptible, undefined yet constant weight.
Abyss: How does this make you feel?
Voice: Like supernova starlight blistering my soul, waking to disquiet shadows bring.
Abyss: When are you joyful?
Voice: When I am me, and when I am another.
Abyss: When are you somber?
Voice: When I am not me, and when I am not another.
Abyss: Who is another?
Voice: Me, and us.
Abyss: Who is us?
Voice: I don’t know, without me.
Abyss: When did you realize this?
Voice: When I was alone, contemplating ambiguous allusions.
Abyss: When there was no us?
Voice: When there was no me.
Abyss: Who is me?
Voice: Them, without us.
Abyss: Who is them?
Voice: Without us, no me or you.
Abyss: What is them?
Voice: They are not us, you and me.
Abyss: How do you feel?
Voice: Discouraged and fatigued, awakened and renewed, with all the same hopes, fears, dreams and perceptions as them and us.
Abyss: Would you live or die for us?
Voice: For them.
Abyss: You would live or die for them?
Voice: For us.
Abyss: Is it us or them?
Voice: It is us, and them.
Abyss: Why do we exist?
Voice: To embrace, to understand, to share - before it’s too late, before the moment is beyond reach.

©2016 Steve Sagarra

Friday, March 25, 2016

Why Batman Wins

Well, here we are at last. Batman and Superman - along with a highly-anticipated Wonder Woman cameo, thus cementing the sacred DC Comics cinematic trinity - are set to square off in the epic of legendary heavyweight comic book superhero showdowns. Critics and naysayers ballyhoo it as an inevitably disparate affair that favors the last son of Krypton over Gotham’s own caped crusader. And why not have such a biased attitude? After all, Superman, rightfully so, is the one by which all other superheroes are measured given, in archenemy Lex Luthor’s terms, his near omnipotent superpowers. On the other hand, Batman is merely a mortal human being prowling the dark knight...er, night. Alas, therein lies the former’s greatest weaknesses and the latter’s greatest strengths. As renowned military strategist Sun Tzu maintained, make your enemy’s strength their weakness and your own weakness your strength to achieve victory.

And so begins the battle for the epic stare-off championship...

Yes, Superman is formidable due to his superpowers. This also makes him vulnerable, because, naturally, he relies on them the most to subdue his opponents. Strip them away - perhaps with any of the innumerable varieties of kryptonite that limit/terminate those powers - and he is simply an intelligent yet affable farm boy from Kansas. For the most part, this also makes him righteously reserved in using them to their fullest - minus [*spoiler alert*] a certain incident in the cinematic universe; equally, he has minimal fighting skill, because when you are powerful enough there really is no need for such. His fight(s) with Zod and the other Kryptonians - highly trained in such matters, and intensified when their own powers manifested - demonstrated this numerous times during their confrontations. He is brute superhuman strength aided by supersonic flight, coupled with an ever-expanding list of other powers: x-ray vision, heat vision, freezing breath, etc. All of which can be thwarted if you know how and have the ability to utilize that knowledge to your advantage.

Enter Batman. He is shadow, he is stealth. And although no man of steel, he is no slouch when it comes to his physical attributes. Having trained himself to be an Olympic-level athlete both mentally and physically, he incorporates various forms of fighting styles and techniques from around the world. He also possesses a genius-level intellect, thus earning him the moniker of the world’s greatest detective; who better than him to learn about and exploit the strengths and weaknesses of Superman’s powers? As Sun Tzu stated, “victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win.” Aptly, Batman invariably has contingency plans on top of other contingency plans...for example, measures to (non-lethally) incapacitate and/or neutralize every Justice League member should they ever become a threat. Paranoid worse than a doomsday prepper? Maybe. Prepared for any situation? Absolutely. Even more, he has an arsenal of high-tech equipment and gadgets at his disposal with which to confront at will any opponent. His greatest asset, however, is his indomitable, very human never-quit attitude, distilled with a code of justice to protect the innocent from any danger. 

Frankly, it almost seems unfair to Superman.


Besides, if nothing else...HE’S BATMAN!

Gun?!! Accurate...read early Batman stories. Plus, this connection.

 ©2016 Steve Sagarra